It seems my, “gypsy soul”, could not be destined to stay on the farm long – a few last minute decisions, a lot of boxes, and off we go again; 1200 miles to, nowhere? — Opportunities squandered with fear and comfort, now opportunistic and gained with discomfort. — The climate is opposite, both in nature and politics. A mirror-(universe) only now, a few lessons learned (that were hard to swallow) are more painfully obvious and of immediate importance, not to be ignored, ever.
I’m here (almost), blissfully unaware, a sardine in a can. I haven’t even read what’s going on in the world around me. I hope you all are doing ok in your prospective regions. — I can trust no persons but those in my own inner circle yet, I desire to rekindle a sense of closeness and community lost.
“The fatigue runs so deep that coffee can’t even touch it.” — Katlina Kliewer (KatIsBack.com)
But they say there’s no rest for the weary (or the wicked?) and I’ll sleep when I’m dead. Or I’ll die (when I sleep). Not sure which one will come first…
One positive — Instead of the land of ice and snow, we are now much closer to the beach than we’ve been in years. So hopefully this summer, we can catch some sun and waves.
This “is” a mirror-verse and in it, [The Lonestar State] is “open” (time will tell what it actually means).
One thing I noted for sure, while I was basically terrified for various reasons and far too full of anxiety to work in the medical-field in Minnesota, I have little to no anxiety now, and have started back at work. The days are long but I’m only doing three days a week now. The workload is heavier, but I feel alright with it. Not certain if it was the time off that helped my mental state or if it’s the state itself that helped — I mean — it’s crowded here, but still tons less oppressive. I even got to play a few rounds of pool the other day! I had not played in probably four years so I was a tad rusty but managed to win one round with a few decent shots.
We have not disappeared. We remain “open”. We are still attempting to be a force to reckon with. The music lives on and evolves yet, we have to re-evaluate, as always, once in a new environment. I have to admit, our music has taken on totally different sounds depending on our surrounding atmosphere, influences, and inspirations. You could name a song and I could literally tell you where about we were and what was going on when it was written.
I think that’s pretty cool!!
I’m sure you all have something that inspires you, something that keeps you going forward, a person, a memory that just makes you smile, a goal…?
These days, my eyes tear up when I see people talking about their loved ones, and how much they miss them, or appreciate them. I laugh when I think about how crazy I used to be, and I smile at my kids when one is running around in a Darth Vader mask, humming his Star Wars “theme song”, and the other is constantly asking for an “appie” (apple). Life is very different now. It feels more urgent for me to show appreciation while I can, and to try and get my affairs in order in case of disaster. Friendships are few and far between these days, and I feel ok with that.
Life moves fast and I'm trying to make it, day by day. No plans, no announcements, just trying to stay open for opportunity and the Universe's next nudge. — Kat
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