If You Find Yourself Here, Welcome To The Dark Side…

If you find yourself here, welcome to the dark side… It’s true! I’m supposed to, “See the light,” but instead, I’m staring, squinting, blinking at it, dumbfounded, asking, “What the Hell am I supposed to do next?” — I have good ideas, but usually lack follow through and discipline. I have two very young children now, and simply put, I’m not as business focused as I wish I was. Maybe that is a lie… I’m actually, just not focused, in general. — What exactly do I wish I am??

Through the years, I have had bursts of creativity and passion followed by prolonged periods of depression and anger. I likely am “certifiable” though I lack the certificate. Know what I mean? Ha! So… It’s not likely that I should aim towards someone I used to be, but push forwards towards…well…that’s just it. Push forwards towards something, towards finding and rediscovering myself; the new me.

What do I like? What do I want to do?? What areas of myself need growth (and so on and so on).

Life’s eternal questions…

So while yes, this can only be fun and interesting, or merely boring and wordy ramblings of a thirty-something year old woman who still feels like she’s 16–*cough cough*–Grow the fuck up, Kat!

I will still sing. I enjoy it. I love the songs we make and the ones I am able to do bit parts on. I am currently very impatiently waiting for one in particular to be released, and I need a baby sitter, though I highly doubt I would trust anyone enough to actually watch my kids. I don’t want to send them to public-school, nor feel comfortable leaving them with family members (though that’s a topic for another day).

So while I don’t know exactly what I’m doing, the point is that I’m taking action and trying to love myself, let go of my past, and grow into my future, and, have fun while doing it. You get me?

I’m still likely to be an angry fuck sometimes, but… Maybe I can harness it like a super power. I mean, does anger management even work? I went to a therapist for a while once, and she was honestly bullshit.

Any suggestions?

Click below and watch my first video about, “Anger-Management!”

Art by: Lester Camacho



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  1. For me, getting closer to God and being active in church activities will be a good solution. We live only to serve God through others.

  2. We all have the time when we’re feeling sad and very down. It’s okay not to be okay but we just have to remember that life must go on no matter what.

  3. Well, we all have our moments that we feel like slamming the wall before us but we just have to keep being calm and hoping for the best.

  4. I have gone troughts those periods where I know that something needs to change but I know sure about how to make it happen. What I’ve realized in the last years is that I need to do only one thing at time, and push me until I finish it.

  5. There is no place I get inspiration from than a place filled with reasonable songs. I love this post for it contents. You really made my day a pleasant one. Thanks so much.

  6. I love the songs we make. Songs give inspiration and makes one happy especially when you’re down. Some songs are emotionally attached. I love songs too

  7. This may sound weird but sometimes you must give in to darkness??? Yes give in let in sink in that way you can face it as suppose to be nonchalant and act like nothing happen. Too much positivism can be a bad thing.

  8. Hi Kat! I can totally relate with your feelings! Loving ourselves is one of the hardest things to do in life. I think we can start small by don’t sweat the small stuff and don’t be too hard on ourselves. Use the anger and disappointment as a self-reminder of being better.

  9. Seriously anger Management do work and it’s one of the important thing for everyone. Look for the light and allow the darkness vanish

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