I realize that not much of what I say about my personal life is of any importance to anyone other than myself. Especially in times like now. While I do believe that everything going on currently worldwide is amplified and fueled by media, you have to take into account that a lot of things resemble a badly written movie-script from a “Left Behind” Christian apocalypse novel. Kirk Cameron rushes on scene and looks around as everything is crumbling around him, at which point he yells up at the sky, “WHY JESUS!! What the gosh darn?!” — Maybe. — Think about it?! Diseases, invisible viruses, famines, war, and rumors of war, race war, protests, riots, looting, earthquakes, locusts, curfews, government abuses…did I miss anything…? Only thing missing to top this year off would be an Alien Invasion, or, at least, increased UFO and Bigfoot sightings (you know, the fully verified kind)…
My deciding to focus on my own family and not work has very little to do with anything other than being a pivotal decision for me to keep my mind sane. Screw the Pandemika (Pandemic). In the words of my son, “Pandemika macht me angry!” — And that’s another thing, our kids. How is all of this affecting them? Not allowed to go anywhere or visit anyone for months, and when they are out, people are rude, angry, or fearful of each other. Nothing is right anymore. Society is broken. I took my son to the park the other day because screw it, he has to have a life too, and there were a few other kids there. He was ‘sooooo’ excited to see other children and wanted to play, but this older girl kept running from him, climbing up high and crossing her arms saying, “Germs.” — I had two lessons to teach my son that day after we left:
One – people won’t always want to play with him (and that’s ok), he needs to respect that and he just has to see if someone else is willing to play
Two – fuck that, it’s a public place. Don’t be angry at kids at a park with germs, when you can stay home. Just wash your damn hands after you play. Playgrounds have never been clean places. I assume most people know this (and usually have their kids wash hands after playing). Wash your hands before you eat and after using the restroom. This is nothing new (to me at least?)
It’s this kind of little stuff that drives me nuts about society currently.
I realize I don’t have to be a slave to conventional ideas or to my belongings, my bills, my job, or to any other peoples opinions.
In the old-world, many things mattered. Now, I’m just trying to position myself for survival and sustainability, and I’m trying to keep my head clear and stay a little peaceful, despite my anger.
What’s most important to you?
(And now) for something funny and odd??
My baby (my second Son) has difficulty with textures for some reason (grass, water, dog-fur, etc.) — His fear is new to me. He is terrified of leather gardening gloves. Terrified! I’m not sure if it was the feel of it or if he thought it was a big scary hand…
It’s probably bad that I laugh but I think it’s hilarious, and I’m sure he will outgrow this eventually.
I hope everyone is having a good night. Stay healthy, stay safe!